Delirium. Post stoned sleepless smiles prevail. Brain shuts off during the day. Time to really play. I want to succeed in life without a college degree and beat the system, ha. Motivation will get me anywhere I need to be. I am so ready to begin.

It's really getting to me how selfish most everyone is, it's sickening. And the sad part of it is I'm probably just as selfish as everyone else, since it's the natural human way. But from now on I'm going to change those ways, and do things for other people, because we are all on this Earth together, and we are able to help each other out, as we should.

emotional highs and lows, unstable mind, unhappiness, doom & gloom, fear, paranoia for the future, unprepared, lazy, slowww, tired, naive, hurt, happy at times. Everyone is an asshole. I don't give a shit about most things, I just want to be back in the forest. I wish I were raised in times where we didn't rely on technology, pre-technology era, but then I couldn't take pictures... These mood swings are severely hurting me, I need a new perspective, I need a new confidence.

My emotions climb so high at times and I can't see where I'm heading.

SHE'S SO HEAVYY

One day I want to move away and fall in love with a rastafarian.

Things are good. A bit jumbled, but good. I love the feeling of getting to know people, when you first become friends with someone, having good conversations, eye contact, smiles, good vibes. I love the feeling of being social, really. Me and my Mom are on the best level we've ever been on right now. She understands me, she realizes I am growing and she is just way chill about everything, I love it so much. I have been so appreciative of having family that cares about me lately. In the past I used to want parents that didn't give a shit about me so I could do whatever I want, but that's a bunch of bullshit, that just winds up fucking people over in life.

Anywho I hate argumentive nature. How people always have to be right, and how friendships will end because one person will be like "I knew I was right, blah blah, bitch bitch." Who gives a fuck if you're 'right'? Everything is a matter of opinion and no two people will ever fully agree on everything. That's the way I see it at least. People just need to chill the fuck out.

Tonight's gonna be a good night, I know it. I'll add more to this later.

Natural Born Killers I am still in love with you....


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I tend to get love hate relationships.

Sometimes the love overrules the hate and vice versa.

Hate is a harsh word, more like love-annoyance relationship.

:/

It's okay, there are many relationships and many more to come.

So I've been thinking and the Indian's really had it right.

The white men really fucked it up.

I can just imagine how great life would be, sitting around the fire telling stories passed through generations, smoking weed, doing payote.

All the sudden I feel like crying.

I am blazed, I like the way typing feels right now.

Me and an old friend are becoming buddies again and he's fucking great, we're meeting up soon, like fifteen minutes... to match bowls.

Not sure why I'm doing this. Suicidal Tendencies rock hard.

Have you seen my girlfriend she lives in a pig pen?

Have you seen my girlfriend?

I can't seem to find her, perhaps she is hiding

underneath a blade of grass

Let's take the whole day off...

Rest in Peace Matt Nagle, it's too bad we never got closer...

I'm keeping a dream journal starting yesterday.

Right now I am really really happy. I dont even know why Im just thinking of the good. my times gonna run out on this comp. I wish I were bliggity blasted right now. My braces might be off in a few months :D weird, jawesome. I watched this boys life last night and it warmed my heart. I miss my brother.

I'm stoned and I'm at Olivias and Im listening to queen and i want it to always be just like this, except not in front of a computer. i just mean I should be stoned 24/7. gon go get a blunt.

It's so nuts that Mr. Sammon's raped some chick, yet I'm not surprised, the little blossoming girls would always cling to him and I guess you could say teacher to student "flirt" with him, I guess he just found one he couldn't resist. Poor girl, he's really big and scary. I wish this would've happened when I was going there, it'd be so much more nuts. Hm. There is one person I want to see, if only they had a phone, or a phone jack.



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anything you want
anything the world has to offer
i can give you
if you just reach out to me
take my hand
everything a kiss cannot bring
i will give you
if you just say you will

and it's freedom
in my arms

I have finally realized what I want, and I am oh so happy.